today, jireh unrolled the long length of paper that we wrote on 7 months ago..
the one about "what was theatre"..omg...
that seemed so freaking long ago...
i look at the words i wrote
and
i dunno
i get a wierd feeling up my throat..
like, so much has happened since i wrote them
and i have changed, so much..
the time i wrote those words,
was the time i was struggling with identity
the inability to fit in my class
in the ang mo culture
i had no idea wad tsd was about,
yet i knew it was what i wanted to do
i wanted to stay
a few weeks after i wrote that
i told jireh i wanted to quit tsd..
in 24, i remember..
in march, i was all prepared to say goodbye..
by this time, i was unwilling to part with tsd,
but willing to part with it on the conditions that i could get my csi dream
to pursue a more conventional career..
by the end of march i am still stuck in the same class
same school
same combi
but so much has changed.
i looked at my class
and the people around me in a different way
no longer were they the bunch of people i doubt i would see or talk to in school
instead,
they are the bunch of people i see everyday
the people i hang out with
the people that i look forward to seeing in school everyday.
the same bunch of people i couldnt fit in with
are the people that make school life bearable now..
i feel ashamed to have thought of dropping tsd..
ever
i remember a loooooooooooooong time ago
when i was just starting to like tsd
"i am going to regret givin it up"
i remember very clearly
wow
dat was so long ago
u noe,
its like i have been preparing for tsd all my life
the random day dreaming in my secondary school days
the messing up the towels cupboard so i can find nice "costumes" to wear while i fantasised upper pri
the playing with my bears and dolls and making sure they have their own storyline in lower pri
i never admitted to these stuff before
i love tsd
it has opened my eyes to alot of things
what is theatre? theatre is about enjoying the process, and letting the audience see how much you enjoy the effort u put in.
/Hopped!
11:36 PM
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