/ Friday, July 25, 2008
well
today was..
a wierd day
first, i went to school
even though it was only half day,
to PON the whole day of lessons,
and camp in 24..
i swear, i dont think any of my classmates know i am in school...
ok lah
maybe those in tsd may know..
but yea, you get the drift.
spent the whole morning slacking..
didnt get
watched eva and her poloroid bid frenzy on ebay earrrrrrly in the morning...
was quite interesting
haha
then hung around
chit chat with the other guys in costume room( trina is now officially convinced that i am half a guy...thanks lah, arianto...say theres 6 1/2 guys and 1/2 girl in the room)
then ran out of school to cycle at ecp- i swear i love cycling
went backk to vj, cabbed to toa payoh to attend the finger players talk
-it was quite an experience...
quite cool lehhhz
splurged at popular- i love stationary
then took this suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper long bus ride from toapayoh all the way back home..
fell asleep in the wrong position, and kena neck cramp..
oh well..
i feel sleepy...............
/Hopped!
10:02 PM
/ Tuesday, July 22, 2008
the world is not fair-
to you
to me
to anyone else.
Therefore.
The world is fair.
Funny how this world works eh
i'm seriously suffering from oversleep..
double econs day 2mr
sian
/Hopped!
11:53 PM
/ Friday, July 18, 2008
post 4: i am spamming.
SO?
THIS IS MY BLOG, as deserted as it is..
arianto has his coffee, i have my sleep.
but somehow.
they dont work anymore....
we should switch..
he cant sleep
i cant drink coffee..
i need coffee
he needs sleep..
/Hopped!
10:47 PM
triple posting because i am stressed.
no
i cant admit that
i wont
ARGH
if i am scaring you
i apologise..
but then again
how many people actually come here..
and read
i wanna die..
just kill me now
plse..
i may be exaggerating this..
bud
i am so bloody glad
(should i be?)
that it is a holiday 2mr
*calms down*
i thought..
i thought i would be fine if i ignored it..
i thought everything would go back to normal if i sleep through it..
which is why i have been sleeping so often..
and thats why i keep telling myself i am tired
but
maybe its just the hormones and the moodswings, added with the tiredness that is making me emo
/Hopped!
10:30 PM
double posting cos i didnt mention wad a idiot i am and how much i hate myself
i am gonna break soon...
i emoed this mornin..
though i managed to pull myself back up again
i tink i am gonna break soon..
SANDY
dont do this to me..
please
dont die on me
dont give up on me..
i wont say i am depressed
i wont say i am stressed
i wont say i am on the point of breakage
i wont say i want answers
i dun wanna noee
dun tell me
dont
DONT!
i am not stressed.
shut up.
i hate you sandy
_______________________--ends emo post.
/Hopped!
10:26 PM
i am convinced that this world has no meaning
and once again i am confused
no. i dont want to admit it
i refuse to.
so, i am stubborn
i wont say that i am behind my work
i wont say that i am screwed
i wont say that i am stuck in a very complicated situation
i wont
i wont..
i wont turn emo again
i wont look down from the highest floor in school,
and facinate jumping down
i wont
i wont get confused
i wont be confused
go away...
dont make me confused..
go away..
dont do this to me...
/Hopped!
10:15 PM
/ Monday, July 14, 2008
today, jireh unrolled the long length of paper that we wrote on 7 months ago..
the one about "what was theatre"..omg...
that seemed so freaking long ago...
i look at the words i wrote
and
i dunno
i get a wierd feeling up my throat..
like, so much has happened since i wrote them
and i have changed, so much..
the time i wrote those words,
was the time i was struggling with identity
the inability to fit in my class
in the ang mo culture
i had no idea wad tsd was about,
yet i knew it was what i wanted to do
i wanted to stay
a few weeks after i wrote that
i told jireh i wanted to quit tsd..
in 24, i remember..
in march, i was all prepared to say goodbye..
by this time, i was unwilling to part with tsd,
but willing to part with it on the conditions that i could get my csi dream
to pursue a more conventional career..
by the end of march i am still stuck in the same class
same school
same combi
but so much has changed.
i looked at my class
and the people around me in a different way
no longer were they the bunch of people i doubt i would see or talk to in school
instead,
they are the bunch of people i see everyday
the people i hang out with
the people that i look forward to seeing in school everyday.
the same bunch of people i couldnt fit in with
are the people that make school life bearable now..
i feel ashamed to have thought of dropping tsd..
ever
i remember a loooooooooooooong time ago
when i was just starting to like tsd
"i am going to regret givin it up"
i remember very clearly
wow
dat was so long ago
u noe,
its like i have been preparing for tsd all my life
the random day dreaming in my secondary school days
the messing up the towels cupboard so i can find nice "costumes" to wear while i fantasised upper pri
the playing with my bears and dolls and making sure they have their own storyline in lower pri
i never admitted to these stuff before
i love tsd
it has opened my eyes to alot of things
what is theatre? theatre is about enjoying the process, and letting the audience see how much you enjoy the effort u put in.
/Hopped!
11:36 PM
/ Thursday, July 10, 2008
just for the sake of making a emo post-
sotong is tired...
very tired...
8 legs arent enough for me to continue walking...
/Hopped!
12:37 PM
/ Wednesday, July 09, 2008
i am suppose to be doing a motherload of stuff
why arent i?
hmmmm
/Hopped!
10:58 PM
/ Tuesday, July 08, 2008
its not good to know too much...
/Hopped!
9:43 PM
/ Monday, July 07, 2008
14 hours of sleep today.
record time
and it was damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn shiok
^^
finally, i feel energy returning to me
i woke up at 1130
(honestly if junfeng and yeow boon hadnt start smsing me, i wouldnt have awoken)
after playing viwawa,
and talking to a bunch of ppl on msn
i went back to sleep at ard 230
and woke up at 530..
watched abit of mythbusters(the pilot ep!)
and then went to buy dinner for my bro?
then watched 1 ep of SNYJJ
then talked to yb all the way...
omg
the As are over
2mr is back to the normal sch life
my bro wants to join tsd!!
yeepee!!!!!!!!
dat is
if he can get in....
/Hopped!
8:17 PM
/ Sunday, July 06, 2008
it has been a wierd day..
today, 06/07/08, was tsd's public performance day
at 9am in the morning, we arrived in sch
cleaned up..
and everything
gt pissed off cos i couldnt seem to find my props anywhere
and 'cos i seem to be looking to the same props over and over again..
then something wierd happened..
while bumping in for underwired..
a T bar fell on Sam's head..
omg i was so shocked lah...
i rannnn, no, sprinted all the way to props alley to grab the first aid kit
and all the way back
somethings are just fated
omg..
hard to believe it sometimes..
its quite scary..
and very very dramatic
took over sam in desmond's piece- what a ghastly experience that was
me and jun feng were like whispering to each other
"let it end, faster end lah" while on the final block
i was bloody nervous.
moustache for the last time
we gave them the erasers..
i love these people
i love tsd
i love moustache
i love mohawk
i love everyone
except
*cough*
and *cough cough*
trina shocked me by producing this super lovely note to all her crew members..
i swear,
i take back everything i said about her
tsd taught me alot of stuff
how to work with people
how to find work to do
how to do stuff i never imagined myself doing(like making props, wearing togas, etc)
how to totally commit to something
to have better social skills
be more sharp to spot mistakes
learn to be totally alert
to stay up later
and to prove to myself that i can do it
i am so bloody thankful i never left tsd
i would have been the worst decision of my life
fate is this way then..
i love tsd
i love moustache and the crew
we must do our group piece together
pleaseeee
today has been a dramatic day
and i am still very buaysong that i couldnt go out for supper
noww i know what yb felt
cycling at ecp on friday rocked
-just had to add it
i wish all people who need luck
have it
jia youz
i know u can do it.
JS STOP STALKING ME.
lol
^^
/Hopped!
11:55 PM