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Freaking pissed

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6:29 PM

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i hate wad i am doing later...i need to find a job

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4:10 PM

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12:19 PM

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omg
prom rocked
like hell
whoot
to sandy
wahhaaha

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12:49 AM

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lmao
sandy is the name of a six year old girl who died at a carnival
on ep 21 of season 1 CSI: crime scene investigation

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9:04 PM

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i have no idea why
but mua mozilla and safari wont work!
so freaking pissed
so i m like..
stuck with stupid internet explorer
and its still not the latest one
so i m like
using the kind of internet
you probably are using 2 years ago
stinks lah
i want mua tabs!
haiz
dunno wad the freaking hell is wrong with my com
oh well
at least internet's till accessible
if i cannot watch my csi
i dunno wad i m gonna do
hehe
the best part abt csi
is that there is no end to it
8 seasons of csi: crime scene investigation,
6 seasons of csi: miami
and 4 seasons of csi: ny

whoot
400+ eps
whoot..

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3:23 PM

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oh well..i am addicted to csi
heh..
six episode in one day?
what are the odds?
after this..
i am even more sure
about my love for law
is there really some line between good and evil?
ep 5 of season 1 csi: las vegas
these two friends
went to party
the "accidentally"
dranks some sort of drug unknowingly
they suffered hallucinations
and one friend killed the other
the guy who got arrested said
"i dont care what happens to me. I killed my best friend"
he got arrested
evidence points to it
but
there is
alot of ghastly truths within the minds of humans
are there
u noe
i always wanted to be a forensic scientist
combines bio with law
but
i discarded that thought when i was given the false impression that forensic scientists= to people who face dead bodies and do autopsies 24/7
but
csi proved me wrong
i seem to live in a world of lies
oh well
to uncover the lies
i need to learn more
to discover
the truths
hmm*csi mood now*
bud i dun tink singapore has that many crimes to solve?
csi is so cool..
and it is actually the closest dream i have
and the closest one that is possible for me to reach
top ambition choice for me?
law or forensic. criminalist
comfirmed
whoot
as long as it has to do with the law

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10:27 PM

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ever get those time..
you get too much time on your hands..
then u dunno wad to do?
life suddenly has lost its meaning
and..
all you wanna do
is..
is..
actually there is NOTHING you want to do
you want to have something to do
but you just dont

well..
thats what i am feeling rite now
somewhat
lost?
i dun wanna watch chinese dramas
i dun wanna watch hong kong dramas
i dun wanna watch jap anime
i dun wanna watch jap drama
i dun wanna play maple
i dun wanna play sims
i dun wanna read

its a really wierd feeling
then..
you suddenly feel like
you have so much time on your hands
you cant actually decide wad to do..
you
have so much time
everyday facing the empty house
and the computer screen
that..
your mind starts to run wild
i dunno
it started happening to me since..
the day o levels ended?
then today it became worst..
duno
i just
dont feel like doing anything
i want to
but
i juz
feel
so
lazy
then..
i start to think
and i start to suspect
am i worth all this?
is my life worth living for?
sometimes..
i feel
that my life lacks meaning?
maybe along with the other billions of people on this giant ball that thinks their life stinks..
but
hah..
i look at myself
what have i accomplished
all these years?
i have never gotten 1st
in anyting
the times i get 1st
are so hard to come by
i believe they are countable using the fingers of one of your hands
i onli have 1 very distinct memory of the time i got 1st
that was..
in sec 2
i managed to get 1st in class for some maths test..
still it wasnt full marks
and..the funny part
was that mr yeow didnt actually tell the class that i got 1st too..
hah..
the other person( i wont say who) got the same score as me
and he/she got 1st in class
so..
yep
funny huh.
i never experienced
success in my life
i barely get the chance to
make others proud of me
and never have i done anything that i was so proud of myself of
i tried
i really tried
or did i?
did i try enough?
did i try hard?
i promise i will try not to cry
when i need
i wont cry
if i cant do anything good
then
i will be strong
mentally
actually
i can easily have chosen to go to any neighbourhood school
and get 1st in every test i take
as i have done in yumin pri
when i was in p3
but
if you ask me to choose again
i wont
i will still choose to come to this school
as i said
i prefer to be the small fish
in the big pond
than the big fish
in the small pond
if i m the big fish in the small pond
sooner or later the pond may not have enough space for me to grow
then
i will be stuck in the same size
otherwise
i may even shrink
i'm going to victoria jc
i promise myself
i scared to promise myself anything
i scared that i will let myself down
cos
i desperately lack in self confidence
because
am i that great?
to have so much confidence in myself?



self doubt..
dun mind this post
i just
want to rant somewhere
sometime
in the near future
i will read back
and see this post
i will probably hate myself again..
i dun like to see people complain
i mean
i normally have this mentality
that
"hey man, just live with it!"
i m a very inhumane
and very not-understanding person
same applies to myself bah

hmm
i wanna go uk
to start afresh
the weather outside is so much like uk rite now
damp
yet dry
cold
yet not humid
u noe
i spent 15 mins outside
staring into the skies
u noe
its funny
that the sky is so cloudy
yet
i still can see stars up there
funny how this world works

do i have what it takes
to get into a school in uk?
no need to say cambridge
uk?
just
any school in uk?
here comes the $$ problem
am i rich enough to fufil my lifetime wish?
i really want to migrate to uk
i really do
i love everything about that place
maybe i shall
someday
hopefully..
why cant i just be born there in the 1st place
then again
this world is filled up with
"why cants" and "ifs"






quoted from stardust:
"is it because the stars look at us
that makes us human
or do we look at the stars
because we are human"
everything has two sides of a story
remember that sandy
theres a reason for everything

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9:24 PM

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Well..
i know i havent been blogging for a long time..
and
well..
alot of things have changed in this past week, days..
and i swear
that you will NOT recognise me, even if i were to stand right in front of you right now
literally
maybe i have changed
this few days
looks wise and maybe mentally
i somewhat became more lazy
heh..
oh well..
juz to prevent you guys from fainting the next time you see me
i permed my hair
yep
that was not a typo
as in
curly
that type
i'm still trying to figure my hair out
how to get it to look okay
instead of me looking like dra's hair

oh well..
what happened today?
well..
i woke up at approximately 930 in the morning
slacked around waiting for my father to go out so i can use e com..
then at ard 10/11 i went to use e com
played abit of sims(MY GIRL GOT TAKEN AWAY BY THE SOCIAL WORKER! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW IF THE INFANT IS COLD)
then..
at 12?
let my bro used e com
then went down to watch the project runway i recorded yesterday(they were designing clothes for BARBIE!)
then..
my bro managed to convince me to go find a job with him
so at 1..
i dragged myself out of the house
and went to lido at orchard..
went to mos burger to apply for place?
then i found out that THEY PAY WHAT $3.50 an hour?!??!?!?
wth
the stupid thing
was that they refused to tell us
what the salary when we called
neither did they tell us when we applying the form
i asked okay
i asked
then only AFTER we signed and handed in the form did he tell us?
but lucky i also asked
that if i m no longer interested in the job
can i withdraw?
heng can
oh well
we juz left the application there
(and i WILL NOT accept the job offer le)
and went up to the cinema there
cos i felt like watching a movie
guess what
no show that interested me
oh well
so me and my bro
walked all the way to cineplex(praying that there was december boys showing)
guess what
december boys dont seem to be showing in s'pore
even though it appeared in the newpapers
so..
we ended up watchin *****stardust*****
before i start ranting about stardust
let me rant about the NUMBER OF SUPER NICE movies coming out on november the 22nd
1)ENCHANTED-I AM SO WATCHING THIS SHOW! it looks so cool lah! the himbo prince charming getting knocked down by bicycles after he stood in the middle of the road and sang? i am so gonna watch it..it tickles me no matter how many times i watch the trailer..
mustwatchmeter: 10/10
2)THE KINGDOM-yea, i know it is nc16, but i CAN sneak in if i want to.. but this is not compulsory..it's just that it looks cool
mustwatchmeter:4/10
3)HERO-okay..its a jap movie about law reinforcement. need i say more?
mustwatchmeter:9/10
4)Two days in paris-yea, oh allright, i dunno wad this show is about..but the name sounds cool?
mustwatchmeter: 2/10?
5)Silk-oh well, who cares if its M18...i noe i cant get in..but..IT HAS KIERA KNIGHTLY!!! anyone believe that babe is onli 21 this year?(imagine the age she got the POC role)
All this rank quite high u noe..considering..movies normally list as 0 under my mustwatchmeter..
except if they are harry potter movies or special movies
oh and there are so many new movies coming up..the nightmare befor christmas, the golden compass, Mr Magorium's emporium, national treasure, the assasination of Jesse James..etcetc
so damn cool
and so damn broke
i need to find a job
hehe

oh well
STARDUST!!!!!!
WHOOT!
CHARLIE COX IS SO..CUTE with long hair lah
hehe
i seem to have a very soft spot for english-gu zhuang looking guys..
his short hair?
is nono
long hair
and i go AH~
and need i mention his SO AWESOME ENGLISH QIANG!
the movie rox
because it reminds me so much of UK(considering it is a uk film)
it juz makees me feel as if i am in uk at that moment
and made me feel..
like using the babylon candle and transporting to Stormhold immediately
if u dunno wad the hell i am talking about
babylon candle is the fastest way of transport and stormhold is a magical universe, seperated from ours by a wall in england(in the movies)
the movie roxs
the seven slaughtered princes are so damn funny
and the people are so damn pretty
pretty
but not bimbotic
at all
neither are they himbotic..
i mean
ROBERT DI NERO ACTED AS A "PIRATE" WHO DRESSED UP AS A GIRL WHEN HE WAS ALONE!
it is so funny lah
the whole show
very nice
very fairytale like
ah~
Claire danes is also so pretty in the show
her blond hair is long dao~
oh and if u dun wanna waste money watching the movie
i juz realised
tudou.com has it
juz type it in
and you will see it
somewhere ard the middle
watch it
*whoots*
so now
sandiiochan is in the fritty fairytale-english mode
and i so wanna go uk
not cambridge
but still uk
scotland ye hao
wales ye hao
i want to go somewhere with that kind of qi fen
i love it

anyway
back to my day
before i digress and go off topic(as usual)
i came home
and went to watch csi and the princess diana special on arts central(also recorded from yesterday)
and i conclude
pricess diana spencer is officially my idol
she is the person i respect the most
how charles treated her
how the media treated her
the pressure she was undergoing
not everybody can take it
the best part
was that she broke away from all that
she broke away
and after the divorce
she became
a complete different person
a person that is so respected.
and charles
and the stupid horse camilla(i cant even bother to check how her name is spelt)
can just go somewhere and rot
let william be king
he's cute enuf
haha
did u noe that diana overheard charles telling camilla over the phone two weeks before their wedding" no matter what happens, i will still always love you"
they horse couple sucks lah
and if that stupid pastor dare say anything stupid again
i will post it on acp and complain
oh wait
I'VE GRADUATE
rite..
rite..
u noe
i seem to be suffering from post O level trauma
i still keep memorising stuff that i remembered..
and somehow
almost every time
anyone asks me to go out
i tink in my head"i cannt go out too often, have to go home study"
then i realise
ITS OVER!

haiz
this is a super long post
yesh i noe
gd luck reading it
oh gosh, u reached the end already
bud anyways..
a long post to make up for my long absence
enjoy your hols people
any job recommendations?



go stardust!
whoot!
charlie cox X Claire Danes
whoot!
heard that the two of them are now very good friends
even though it will be jie di lian(he is 25 and she is 28)
who cares! the both of them rock
wahahaha
oh, and some trivia for you guys
didcha noe that Claire Danes, was suppose to act Rose in titanic?
the refused it
cos she was too tired after acting the romeo and juliet movie, also starring Leonado Di Caprio
she was 17 then

makes my life seem like it sucks


* i wanted to post a pic of stardust but blogger is NOT working with me
oh wells, shall sign off to go obsess even more~
toodelss

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9:45 PM

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ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
WHY CANT THE SIMS 2 WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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3:33 PM

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i hate consolling people
absolutely detest it
no matter how close you seem to be to me
i hate it when i have to end up consolling you
i am an unfeeling person
so what?
okay,
i admit
i may seem like this nice person
but actually i am so damn unsympathetic
i cant understand people
i cant understand why sometimes people get so upset over minor stuff

adrian sucks

i mean it
he does
he's even worst than me
he spoilt my emo moment

now i cant even be emo anymore
suck

see!
i cant say wad i wanted to say anymore..
no more feeling le

*shall use that excuse to blackmail him to let me use sims*

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2:08 PM

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i m hooked onto sims -the custom content part
wahhaha

freedom has a wierd feeling to it..
really wierd..

gonna watch the bee movie today
free tickets from my aunt!




au revoir chacun
-translation="goodbye everyone"

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okay
maple officially sucks
i calculated
i need 20 hours to lvl up
wth
and its so freaking sian lah
maybe i shuld go try rakion afterall

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4:31 PM

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Get a cash advance

oh so am i suppose to curse more often?
this sucks

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*curses unknown long foul vulgarity*



trust me..i dont feel general






excuse the pissed off mood..
must be cos i m feeling sleepy at the moment..
just..
thought of some unhappy stuff juz now
so..
not feeling at the best of moods now..
no worries..
i will be fine by tomorrow..
as i always do
y m i so cheerful??




remember to bring your 13 bucks 4b
the loanshark's still at it.

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10:14 PM

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its times like these..
i feel so freaking pissed..
and tired...

lit's 2mr
suppose to be studying

not

was watching tv ever since 6

non stop

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10:01 PM

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there's something wrong with my eyes
maybe cos i m too tired le..
countdown approximately 16 and a half hours to ss paper
and i m nt done studying
whee?
i cant concentrate now
the panic's kicking in
darn
i cant panic now
not now..
haiz
anyway
i m taking a break
before i go back to pia my ss
and my 2 chapters left of bio
i'm serious
the first thing after geog paper 1
i m going home to take a longggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg nap
to rest my poor eyes..
whoooo...
*drum roll*
are going to get justice done to them!
i'm getting contacts!
then they no need to be hidden under that freaking two slides of plastic and stainless steel metal(who is already crooked liao)
instead, they can be hidden under extra thing pieces of disposable plastics!
yes, not glass, PLASTICS!!!
haha
mum says we can go order today
ard 6
which means i m suppose to be piaing now..
to make up for the time i m going to lose lata..
budden
my poor eyes are freaking tired
i cant even concentrate..
i need to score for bio
i cannot get a low score for ss
*prays hard that the papers will not be a killer*
i sincerely hope dat a paper like the 2005 one will come out
NO SINGAPORE AT ALL!
whoot
considering i studied all the overseas wan le..
hehe
if they come out ALL singapore this time arh
i m so gonna
scream

speaking of overseas..
went to check the university ranking of the world just now(which is why i m here in the first place)
cambridge is still no 2 in the world lin yu
and guess whose no 3?
OXFORD
cant believe it lah
oh, and i made up my mind le..
not cambridge then imperial
not imperial then oxford(er..i dunno how dats gonna happen)
after that..
maybe university of warwick..
otherwise NUS le loh
oh, u noe NUS is 19th in the world?
NTU is 61th
SMU is not even in the list.
whoot?
and i m aiming for no 2..
wow...
cambridge is for overseas students with
"exceptional results"
exceptional lan results i have


take me?


*back to mugging my guts out for cambridge*

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3:29 PM

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