attempting to blog once again / Saturday, February 24, 2007
hi
i m back
dunno y i m here though...juz felt like blogging...
so i logged in
and when i stare at this posting page...
i suddenly dunno wad to say
to think i was still like planning one whole list of things to say
haizzzzzzzzzz
practical sandy
juz came back from our last guides thinking day rally
and it was fun!
our last...
dont anyone realise how come time can fly by so fast...
and i dun wanna leave secondary school
i dont want to leave this place
where all my friends are
where i m in a familiar surroundings
and go to a completely new place
where i have to talk to a bunch of new people
all over again
and make new friends
[i m HORRENDOUS at talking to new people..
juz cant seem to find a topic to talk about.
funny rite.
and melissa calls me a chatterbox.]
but at least when i leave
i get to reload my life.
cos truthfully, i dun like the character i m being right now.
Abit too act cute even for myself
[calista would love to hear this,
but at least i m nt as bad as lin yu!
haha..jkjk]
then imagine....
in like 2 years time, we would have finished JC
and then went on to go to find their own careers
yadayadayada
and i havent even decided wad i want to be when i grow up!
a lawyer?-
i dun mind....but i have to memorise alot...a tv show director/producer?-
only because i cant stand mediacorp and their boring shows on tv right now...i dunno...
and then i juz saw lin yu's blog
and she said i scored well in every exam
so not loh
i cant even remember what a sclera is
[speaking of which, dont you think sclera would make a very nice name?]
haizzzz
so depressing
i hate myself for being so fickle-minded
i hate myself for being who i hate
haizzzzzzzzzz
how come everytime i come and blog i always seem to make myself so depressed
maybe cos it is now i come to realise that i onli have like
how many months left to buck up my studies?
to get through the freaking O levels?
and everyone knows i hate studying
so this sucks..
really
i really envy those people
who really have some form of talent
who actually are good in something
or who at least look good[yea i know i look stupid thank you]i want to do the best in the things that i do
i m a perfectionist you know
but now
i dunno
i seem to be suspecting if i can actually do it
because even the things that i really want to do well in
i dun get the result that i want
and that sucks
see what i mean by being depressed?
thats why i seldom blog
maybe
or maybe cos i m juz too lazy.
so me.
/Hopped!
5:35 PM
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